Last Post!

So this is my last post and honestly I'm pretty excited! This is just one more thing I don't have to worry about doing any more. I am still pretty much in shock by how fast this semester went by, however, I'm still pretty stressed by everything I have to get done/be prepared for. But I think I have been doing a pretty good job at getting ready for my up coming tests. I think though, I should be working more on accounting, and maybe reviewing a little more for my finals. It's just hard to know what you should be studying and what you should wait a little more to start.

But anyway, last night my friends and I went to the movies and then later we went to a party. It was nice to just get out and forget about the responsibilities that I have. However, I don't think I can afford to do this again before school lets out because of eveything that I need to accomplish. Anyway, I should finish this post so I can start studying or working on my English paper...

Accomplishing Things

Well this week is almost over and it feels good. I got two tests out of the way, have been studying a lot, and practicing. It just feels nice to cross things off my nice long list. In an hour or so I have to practice with my pianist for my recital that is on Tuesday and then after that I'm going to go to my friends Jr. Recital and then the after party. It will be a nice little break that is very much needed. But tomorrow will be even busier than today. I get to look forward to meeting my friend in the library at 8:30 to go over business law, then go to a private lesson, class, orchestra, sectionals, then back to the library to review for accounting... once i get all that done I'll be done for the day! Man how I look forward to that! haah

But anyway, it's almost hard to believe that my first year in college is almost over. This semester has flown by and I'm just hoping I do well in the end. It's been pretty rough but I have learned a lot and figured a lot about myself. I'm hoping though I next will go a little smoother. But anyway, enough rambling I need to get my rehearsal.

I Don't Know

I honestly don't know what to write. I've just extremely busy. I know I mentioned it in my last post, but it's true. I'm taking it a day at a time, and I have sorted out when I'm studying what, but man... this is nuts. I'm so looking forward to summer, even though I am taking summer classes! I will be taking Biology and Political Science, I can't wait until I get those classes out of the way! :-D

So I sign up for classes bright and early tomorrow! I'm looking forward to being situated next year, but my schedule looks pretty tough. I'm still trying to decide if I should take orchestra and/or private lessons... I just don't know. I love playing, but right now I just don't think it's for me. But I mean I've been playing since 5th grade so it'll be a little different not to play anymore, and just the thought that this might be my last concert on Sunday makes me a little sad... ah I just rreally don't know...

Well I'll figure it out sooner or later... I need to head off to sectionals..>.<

busy

So my head still hurts, but I'm making it. But all I know is that this next 2 1/2 weeks are going to be killer! This concussion has really set me back since I don't really remember what happened this past week... I'm just glad that I'm finally getting better...

However, in the next 2 1/2 weeks I have 4 test, 1 paper, 5 finals, a concert, and a recital....I have know idea how I'm going to be prepared for all of this. I know I need to start studying for my finals now, since my first final starts on April 30th, and my last final is on May 1st... But its hard to study for the finals, when I'm still learning/studying material for the last next... Like for accounting my last test is April 28th and my final is April 30th... this is nuts...

concussion

So this isn't going to be very long... i've had a bad headache ever since the accident, and i've been feeling horrible. I went to the doctor yesterday and I have a concussion. This is horrible since i had a test Monday, a test tomorrow, and a test Wednesday...

I don't feel well at all. I'm worried about the guy in my car too. He's going to the hospital tonight. The accident doesn't look to bad, but both him and I have gotten hurt pretty bad... I just want to feel better so I can do well in school... i guess we'll see what happens...

accident..

So Friday at 12:01 ish, someone hit me from behind... I was on the feeder road in Houston and I couldn't go through the intersection because of another accident, so i stopped... however, the driver behind me didn't realize I was there, or stopped until last min. My passenger heard the breaks, however I did not... So since the speed limit was 55 I'm sure he was going about 60, and then with him slamming on his breaks he was going somewhere around 35-45 miles per hr...

My car, the Ion, doesn't look like it received much damage... however, you have to remember that Saturn are supposed to bounce back if you hit them... haha So if you look at the other guys car... well his car isn't doing to great haha... My passenger and I both are hurt. However, I think I'm doing better than he is, only because I didn't hear the breaks, so I wasn't expecting it...which means... my body was relax... Chris, however, heard his breaks lock and looked towards me and tensed... so he's in a lot of pain... :-\ i believe he will be going to the Dr. soon...

It was just a crazy night, there were so many accidents all in the same time frame... The worse one however, was a motorcyclist fell OFF the freeway going at high speeds... I"m hoping he's going to make it... but I honestly don't know...

Semester Ending

So this semester is coming to an end and I couldn't be happier. However, there are so many things left that have to be completed and there is less than a month left! It's a little nerve raking if I think about it. Also, I am not sure where I am living next year. I am hoping to get an apt. but I don't know if that will work out, and on top of that, I am considering transfering to University of Houston, and living at home. The ONLY reason why I would do that would be because the moeny my dad is saving from room and board, he would put towards my masters... and normally I would be paying for my masters...

If I did that though, I wouldn't really be getting the college life experience, which a part of me is alright with that. But the other side, is that if I do stay here, then I will be in even more debt once I graduate from college... But money isn't everything... So I'm not sure what I am going to be doing, but all I know is that I need to figure it all out SOON...

Riding

I've realized that I truly miss horseback riding. It has been my life since 3rd grade. I started doing it competitively and it was truly amazing. My dream would have been completing in the Olympics, but sadly it cost a lot of money to compete and affording a trainer good enough to get you prepared for what you want to do... and my family doesn't have that much money to do that. I could always get a sponsor but to get noticed you have to go to all the shows and those cost A LOT of money...

I had to give my horse away in May because I was going to go to college. I miss her so much; I've owned her since 6th grade. I mean I could go out and see her whenever I want, but it's very hard to see her...she has lost a lot of weight because she is roaming 500 acres of land, and she has scratches all over her... I mean she's still healthy, but she's not pampered like she used to be. I just really miss riding, and hopefully I can get back into it. It was more than a hobby to me... it was my life, my passion... what truly made me happy... One day I'll compete again :-)

here are some pictures of my horse and I :-) enjoy!!

Track 21

So Saturday night I ended up going to Track 21 with Chris, and oh my goodness it was so much fun! I was a little nervous because I wasn't used to how fast to karts went or the track >.< so I didn't do so well... BUT I know next time I go I will go a lot better... I just can't be afraid of crashing into the sides of the walls!!! haha But as I said in my last entry, track 21 is a go kart place... it's $20 for a 10 min. race! it's pretty crazy, but it's def. worth it. I had to wear a helmat and everything :-)

The next morning and a day or so after, I was actually really sore! The racing actually was a really good work out :-) My abs were sore as well as my arms and back lol. I was pretty excited... it just never really occured to me that go karts would be a decent work out! but anyway that was my fun experience with go karts... and hopefully I can go again sometime soon... and not wait 5 years to get in another go kart :-P

Weekend

So I decided to come home this weekend for Easter. It almost bums me out that I didn't come home Friday, because then I could have gone to the rodeo! But oh well. I'm looking forward to Easter. I get to see family I rarely see, and my little cousin get's do search for easter eggs! :-) I'm pretty excited, I'm not exactly sure why, but I am...haha

For this weekend though, I got into town this morning and the I took a nice long nap :-) after that I dropped off a package, picked up some sheet music, and then came home to work on some accounting... but now I am waiting on my friend Chris to come pick me up. We are either going to go to Track 21 to ride some super fast go karts, or go to main event and bowl and play pool and what not :-) either way it should be a fun night... I'm excited :-D

Friday Night

So it's Friday night and I had an offer to go to the rodeo in Houston...the seat would have been in the suits where EVERYTHING is free... I was so tempting in just packing my bags and going, but for some odd reason I didn't? I almost wish I would have, but I guess it would have been a fairly stupid thing to do since Houston is about 2 1/2 hours away! haha

But since I decided not to go, I'm sitting in my dorm wondering what I'm going to do for the rest of the night. I'm most certainly ready to get out and do something but I'm just not sure what it is yet. I guess I better start calling up some people to see what's going on tonight and figure out what I'm doing! :-)

Sick

So I really don't feel well... I know I'm sick... I just want to lay in bed, and do NOTHING... however, my mom really wants me to go out with her and buy me jeans and stuff! That would be pretty amazing, but honestly right now, I just want to sit and do nothing... maybe catch up on some homeword. I know that I'm going to out with her, but I'm just really loving not doing ANYTHING for once.

Other than that, I'm sure this is what my Spring Break is going to be like... Just relaxing at my house. I know that doesn't sound like much fun, but honestly I believe this is what I need. I have stressed myself out so much about everything I lost my passions and my drive. Now I can relax, regather my thoughts, and honestly I already my passions back and my drive back. I want to finish up my homework this break, and I want to ride again, and I've been practicing my cello pretty much non stop... it's pretty amazing... Being at home also allows me to catch up with my parents... It's been awhile since I actually stayed home and hung out with them. It's nice.

Lessons Learned

Have you ever just wondered why things happen and why you do the things you do. Some people will say that you have control over everything that you do, but what about if what you do is because you are depressed, hurt, angry, and that was caused by someone else? Does it still mean that it was your decision completly or was it just bad judgement because you weren't in a good mindset...

I know the person who I am. I know I am a really good, honest person, but have been hurt a lot by various things. And because of that, I have done some pretty stupid things, and hurt a lot of people... I don't want to say that's the person who I am, because I know the reasons why I did the things I did, and it was because of the pain people caused me... I guess since I'm aware of that now, I can change how I do things and not let those people control me anymore, but it's just hard because I've seen how much wrong I've done, and I hate that about myself. However, I can't change the things I did, nor can I change what people have done with me, so I guess I can just change how I do things now, and that will shape my future... I just need to figure out how to forgive myself for the stupid things I did...

Concert

So my parents came to San Marcos Sunday for my Orchestra concert. It was really nice getting to see them. We went to eat, and talked for a while. And then went to get coffee... :-) I had to be at a sectional at 1:15 though, so I had to cut hangout with them for a little. But it was ok, the cello section was in need of a sectional, since the principle cellist has been out sick for a good week or more.

The concert went pretty well. I'm glad it's over. I didn't really like the pieces we were playing all that much. But it's ok, they weren't horrible. But I'm just looking forward to our next concert on April 20th. We are playing really good pieces so I'm pretty excited.

But I guess I should stop writing here and start reading Hamlet or maybe my Phil... :-)

my weekend

So I went home this weekend, and it was very odd actually. I studied a lot, and got a lot done. However, my parents didn't know was home, so I was staying with my best friend Eliza. We had a lot of fun, and we needed to catch up. But on Saturday I believe, i was leaving her house to drive to a coffee place to study, and I realized I needed gas, so I was going to stop off at the bank. However, I pretty much ran out before I reached the bank, so I stopped off at the closest gas station hoping to find enough money so i could be able to reach the bank... I went into the gas station, and I guess this guy could tell I was in a little need to help, so he said that he would pay for the gas! I was so relieved and thankful! I mean this guy seemed a little out of it, maybe even on drugs... BUT it was still exteremly nice of him to do that...

When I was filling up, this other guy pulled up in his car, and asked me if everything was alright. He saw saw what happened and he wanted to make sure I was ok. He's then asked if i needed anything... anything at all. I said no. We then started small talk, and he mentioned that strange things happen in Houston. I asked where he was from, and he said that he played for the Patriots, but was just traded to the Texans...!!! He's like if you ever need anything, give me a call, and we can go out for lunch or dinner or anything... I was like oh my gosh... I wonder if this guy is really telling me truth, I mean he was in a really nice car, but that doesn't mean anything...but anyway, I found that pretty cool

So that was my interesting weekend... I'll write the other blog tomorrow... :-)

Going to Bed

So I finished everything I needed to. I feel a little bit better. I'm just super exausted. I had a very long fun weekend, but I think I over did it. I didn't get much sleep, and all day today I felt really dizy and out of it... Luckly I feel a lot better so I'm able to think more rationally...

I've been thinking about dropping orchestra. If I did, I would have A LOT more time for school, but if I drop it, I would lose a lot of scholarship money... I also would be quiting SOMETHING else I love to do... Well I guess that is something else I have to decide fairly soon...

Annoyed

I have had so much going on. I don't want to complain about doing this blog, but I'm getting very annoyed having to do this! I either forget to do it, or don't have really anything to talk about. I have so much other stuff I'm worring about, it slips my mind to make a blog... I've been pretty stressed out actually, so I'm sure I'm over reacting with typing a blog... haha

But in all honesty, I've been feeling pretty sick. Not fever sick, but really dizy... and I really just want to be home. I'm getting a little tired of stressing about school. I am also a little confused about this one guy I know back at home. We were talking, and we still are, but you know sometimes you just get a feeling like something changed... even if it happened overnight. And you're not sure what... So that is pretty much what happened last night. I don't want to over react, but at the same time I don't want to get close when things changed. I guess time will tell. Sorry for this random rant, I just needed to vent a little...

Oh yeah, for some reason I can't really see text from the PsycInfo database... If anyone can help, I would GREATLY appreciate it...

Busy Weekend

So this weekend, I really wanted to go home. I wanted to hangout with my best friend and see my family. BUT I had so much homework I had to finish. I have a BLAW test on Tuesday, which I needed to learn, a lot of Accounting I needed to figure out, and I had to read for Phil. So all day Saturday my friend and I worked on Accounting... and I mean all day... it took us 5 hours to finally finish it all! Once we finished we went out to play pool. That was a lot of fun... The manager of Cats gave us drinks and everything!

Then Sunday came around.... I was on the phone all day because I was setting up a study session for BLAW. It was pretty crazy. I was also studying all day for this class. When 6:30 came around, the session started. It helped a lot, but I still am worried about this test... Hopefully today when I meet up with my friend, I'll feel more confident.

NEW PHONE!

So I finally revieved my new phone!... It's a Krazer? Sorry for the spelling... But it's cool I guess... nothing to special but hey IT'S A PHONE!.... However, I wasn't used to the alarm on the phone and I didn't wake up for my 8 am class on Thrusday! arg!... it's ok though... I do like this phone though because I can put my music on the phone and listen to that, enstead of having to use my MP3. I don't really like carrying that many things at a time, so it helps.

The only down side of getting a new phone is that I don't have ANYONES numbers. So even though I'm able to talk to people now, I'm not able to call anyone! So I guess the next step is for me to get everyones numbers again... also I lost all of my pictures on my old phone! I had about 300 or more... so that is very sad, since I had pictures from when I went to Chicago on there... But hey, now I can have an excuse to go back to Chicago right?!

Procratination...

So I have realized that I have been slacking off way to much this semester. I just had my first test in accounting, and I realized that if I would have really studied for it, then it would have been fairly easy. Since I didn't study as well as I know I could have, there were many questions where I was in between to answers... I mean I have figured out fast that I need to step it up so I can do well this semester, I just hope I haven't gotten myself to deep into a whole already. It's just very hard for me to actually focus right now. My mind has been so distant from school...

I guess I really need to stop going home so much. That way I can focus on my school work more. I also need to cut down computer time. I should get all of my work done, and then have fun. Of course I can take breaks, but I really need to get motivated about doing very well this semester. I know I'm fully capable of maintaining A's and some B's this semester, but it's not going to be easy... I mean I actually am going to have to work for it... So I guess now is the time to do that before it's to late... and I'm hoping it's not already to late for Accounting...

No Phone!

Alright, so I wasn't really thinking, and I ended up charging my phone next to my sink in my dorm room... I figured everything out be alright since it was far enough away from the sink... That morning I woke up to unplug my phone, and it was extremely hot, and was sitting in a puddle of water!.... Lets just say that it wouldn't turn on...

So this whole week I havent had my phone :-( It's been horrible. I check my voicemail from my my friends phone and I have all of these important calls that I missed, but they didn't leave their number so I have know way of calling them back :-( My parents sent me my old phone, but there was a reason why I got a new phone... Lets just say that I can't hear anything out of my old phone... Well I guess we will see if I can get another phone soon... :-D

The Weekend

So this weekend went really well... my friend Chris came up to visit me, and we were able to catch up. It was very nice to catch up with an old friend. However, we watched the game, and lets just say we both were very upset with how the Superbowl ended... He has been a Patriots fan since he was little, and for me, I wanted them to go 19-0... like how the Dolphines did back in the day... but no. They lost... :-( Oh well, it was still a really good game... and on top of that the Comercials were pretty good :-D

Since the weekend is over, and I didn't focus on my homework, I have a lot of catching up to do tonight. I don't regret having fun this weekend, but today will be fairly stressful... I'm just looking forward for this day to be over so I know I can relax a little bit. I also have this bet with Chris, that in 3 weeks, we will see who is in better shape... So that means, I have to go to the Rec. everyday. I am very excited about doing that, but I just don't really have time... Oh well, I can't let him win :-D

So this past weekend has been pretty amazing. I went back home so I could go to my friends party for his birthday. While I was there, I was able to relax so much. I came back the next day and I was able to finish up all of my work. But that night, I ended up leaving a message to one of my old friends whom I haven't spoken to in about 3 years. We caught up, and he is actually coming up here to visit me this weekend! I haven't been this happy in a while. Also school, it's really coming along. My classes are fairly difficult, but they are very managable. And as for my social life, I have a fairly good one believe it or not. I've known from a very young age that the main thing in the business world is about connections. I already have many connections. So I am really looking forward to see where I can go with my life.

But anyway, Sunday is the Superbowl. I actually don't know that much about football, but i really want the Patriots to win. I mean come on, how many teams can go undefeated... it's been many many years since the last team has done that...I don't remember who it was who did that..?? anyone know? But yeah, I've very excited for the game and comercials :-D

First Few Days

So it is the first few days here at Texas State, and I am already getting a little over whelmed by all of my school work. I knew this semester was going to be hard, but I was still in hopes that it was going to kill me, but taking 18 hours of hard courses, barely leaves me any time to myself. On top of that I also play the cello, so this is making it very hard for me to find time to practice. However, I don't want to complain to much, because I am aware that this is my choice to be taking so many hours, I really want to graduate early. I am also looking forward to my apartment next year. So I guess I have some incentives to be taking so many hours.

Coming back to Texas State after Christmas I thought was going to be easy. But in reality its very hard. I miss all of my friends and family back home. This past few weeks have been very difficult for me, and my friends and family have been there for me, so now that I am away from them it is very hard. However, this is the time for me to grow and see what I can do on my own, so I guess I should be taking this as a blessing. Anyway, I am not sure what else to write in here so this is it for now.